Who is this person in the mirror looking back at me ? Is it me ? I doesn't feel like me !! Where is the sparkle in my eyes I used to have . I am not the same person I was a part of me is gone forever with Jeremy .
The time has come for me to go back to my job working in a Nursing Home is so rewarding these people are just like my family ~ they have taught me so much and I knew there was a reason I chose Heath Care for a profession.
They are all so comforting Loving and I am glad to be back with them I Love them so much . I am now searching to find the true me the real me . I am Amazed at the strength I have I know God and the Angels are helping me every day.
I know now that there is so much more out there than I have been taught . I am reading so many books my favorite author at this time is Sylvia Browne a Professional Psychic .
I am reading so many of her books and finding so many answers that I already knew which was buried deep inside of me but as my mind opened more I became more aware . Thank God for Sylvia Browne .
Jarrod is such a Blessing to me I am so Thankful for him he was sent from Heaven . I have him often and we have so much fun with him .
They are having a Memorial Basketball Game for Jeremy tonight. Jeremy played basket ball all through school and I Loved attending his every game . I am having a really hard time with this though I have a huge lump in my thrat and a heavy feeling in my chest wondering how am I going to do this ?
I am getting ready to go for an appointment and I hear a loud knocking at the door which is down in the garage . I am in my bare feet and it is winter . I go to the door in the house and holler down Hello and no answer . I holler again because the door is locked . No one is answering me . I look down and the door knob is turning .
I ran down to the garage door and open it and there is no one there . At this point I am second guessing myself and run back up stairs look at my bare feet and say yes they are cold . I am not dreaming .
I go down again and look outside in the snow there are no tracks because it is snowing some . How can this be ? How could someone be knocking and no one there !!!
I go back into the house and finish getting ready to leave . Intuition is kicking in and I am reminded about ways our Loved ones can connect with us .
When I get back home again I drive into the garage and have this feeling of warmth from the top of my head to the tips of my toes . I can feel it all around me as I get out of the van and go up the stairs I holler Jeremy I am back I am home !!
Where did this come from ? It just came out !! What an Amazing feeling I feel =) The lump is gone and the heaviness and I feel pure Peace . OMG I cannot believe this feeling .
I went to the Memorial Game and they retired his number and Jersey and had it hung in the Gym . They presented me with flowers after the game this was all the boys Jeremy played basketball with . I left the school feeling like Jeremy was a Hero . The teachers and boys were Amazing and it was a wonderful evening to ever be Remembered .
A week later the phone keeps ringing and when I answer it no one is there . Sometimes It will happen maybe 30 - 40 times a day . I was watching a show with Sylvia Browne on it and she was telling how our Loved ones communicate with us by moving things , which the picture of Jeremy would always be crooked :) also she said they will call on the phone and no one will be there . Bingo I had my answer !!
The next time it happened I answered with no response so I said Jeremy if this is you click the phone . You guessed it click went the phone so I knew it was him . Later on it disconnected . He is always around me these days he knows I need him comforting me . To Be Continued ....
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