The Day My Life Changed Forever

It was a beautiful warm summer day and I was taking care of my grandson oh how I Loved to have him with me a hand full of  pleasure :)  Little did I know my life would change forever !!

Jeremy (my son) called me that morning and asked me to take care of Jarrod (my grandson) who was 2 years old at the time . Yes of course I said with a smile in my heart oh how I loved my son and grandson :)

I hurried around to get things done that I knew I would not get done later :) wanting to spend every moment with Jarrod .  Jeremy came later on and brought Jarrod in to me . He was going to a baseball memorial game for his friend Adam who was killed in a car accident the prior year .

Jeremy kissed Jarrod goodbye and told him he Loved him and as I watched him get into his car he got back out and came in again and came over kissed Jarrod again kissed me also told us he Loved us and left .

I could feel a stirring inside of me a  not knowing sensation of why I was feeling this way ~

Later that day Jeremy phoned me and asked me to take Jarrod home to his Mother . You see they were young and not married and really not even talking to one another .  ~ Still feeling  weird ~

Intuition  (my inner knowing ) at this time is kicking in ~ Pacing around the house and feeling empty inside ...

When I took Jarrod home to his Mom she said her and Jeremy had a good talk and worked things out .

Still I felt funny inside the feeling of the unknown is going to happen . Back at home again I  did my routine things and went to bed .  I tossed and turned and could not sleep .

I got up and went out into the living room and sat on the sofa looking out into the darkness. I don't really know how long I stayed out there just looking at the sky and the stars and thinking .

Jeremy was not  only my son he was my best friend you see his Father and I had parted a couple of years ago at that time and Jeremy had always been there to comfort me and I him . We confided in each other totally .

Whatever time I went back to bed I think I had been there just a little while and heard a voice calling my name I hollered what ?



I jumped up and ran out into the hallway to find one of  Jeremy's fiends there his face was white and I screamed Wally what is wrong ?

He said Jeremy had been in an accident and I went to my knees . I asked him how bad is it ? He said Bad .

We went to the hospital which was an hour away from where I lived that was the longest  hour of my entire life . Wally told me that Jeremy had given his car to a friend and had taken the friend's motor bike . OMG

 I started asking if Jeremy was alert he said no . I was an EMT and knew this was not good . By the time I got to the hospital Jeremy was in the trauma room . They wouldn't let me in because they had a team working on him.

That was a long time  of waiting and soon they brought him out to surgery. ~ I knew then as I waited he was not coming back to me I Knew he was not ever going to tell me he Loved me again or we could never have those long beautiful talks we always had ~

Oh Jeremy how am I ever going to survive without you ? My older son was living 3000 kilometers away . What am I going to do ?

God I prayed if you are going to take Jeremy from me take him all the way not left on a life support with me having to make a choice to pull the plug . I have always been connected to God always knew God heard my prayers and always gave me what was right for me .

God and the Angels softly whispered in my ears Jeremy is going Home it is Time ~ They brought me out warm blankets from the warming bin I was in shock and I knew it ~

The doctor came out of the OR and  I  looked  at him and immediately went to the floor ~ How am I to live without Jeremy ?




The ER was filled with Jeremy's friends they were all there wanting Jeremy to be okay . I was so Blessed to have them with us supporting us they were like my own children .

It was so hard to see all those faces in disbelief that their friend was gone that they would not be able to have him in their lives . I was doing my best to comfort them as well as holding it together myself . God in His  Infinite Wisdom is holding me up and giving  me so much strength .

Now it was time to go in and say goodbye to my precious son who was on his way back Home  xXx 

I am driving to my Mother's house in just plain shock like the world is turning but I am not really in it . Part of me is gone with Jeremy never to return .

We are knocking at Mom's door and I can see them Mom & Dad in the window smiling ~ How can I tell them their grandson is gone ? Dear God give me the words to say to them ~

Dad said what is going on ?  How can I tell them my baby boy is gone ?

Mom & Dad you better sit down I have some sad news to tell you . Jeremy was in an accident and he didn't make it . The boy who Loved life Loved his Family and Friends was gone . He was an Angel loaned to me and brought me so much Joy how could he in just those minutes be gone ?

Mom & Dad are both in denial . I feel their pain and their numbness but I can hardly feel me .


I have to go home I have so many things I have to think about so many arrangements to make .The drive back home was endless I am exhausted but I cannot sleep so much to think about . I have to call my son .

God wrap me in your Loving Arms and hold me close I need you .

The next days were like a Bad Dream that I could not wake up in I just floated through them I guess . There were so many many people  and so many friends . Their Amazing Love was incredible they were Angels .They all Loved Jeremy he was a wonderful friend a wonderful son who always found the best in everyone . I can feel him all around me I know he is here watching it all taking it all in and worrying about his Family and Friends .

The months that followed were incredible .....